Who are you?

Several posts ago I wrote about a statement I came across by Shelly Wilson. “I am a spiritual being having a human life experience.”

It is a really really hard concept to get because it feels like I am a human being that has spiritual insights, rather than vice versa. And being human really limits what I can do. It also boggles my mind and would take the biggest leap of faith to live as if I were a spiritual being and observe my human behavior and quirks as an experience rather than reality.

However, my friends and family know that I am weird and I subscribe to all kinds of financial, self improvement, health and well being sites. Some very conventional and useful, i.e. cooking with Nagi from recipetineats.com, some controversial, many blog sites of friends and friends of friends. Some are naturopathic, some are strange.

Today, I got an email from Nick Polizzi of Sacred Science about a video series called Inner Alchemy. As a teaser, we get 3 parts for free. The 1st part was the question, “Who Am I?” It is a short 7 minute video with Nick talking about that query. The assignment is to take a few minutes and write down our own answers.

I liked the exercise. Maybe you will too. And that’s my post for today.

Living in the now

I forget when I saw this poem, but it is so spot on.  I hope you have a great day today!

Look to this day,
for it is life, the very breath of life.
In its brief course
Lie all the realities of your existence;
the bliss of growth,
the glory of action,
the splendor of beauty.
For yesterday is only a dream,
and tomorrow is but a vision.
But today, well lived,
makes every yesterday a dream of happiness,
and every tomorrow
a vision of hope.
Look well, therefore, to this day.

Sanskrit poem by Kalidasa

Another Epiphany

Epiphany definition: a moment when you suddenly feel you understand, or suddenly become conscious of, something that is very important to you.

(another definition is a powerful religious experience but that isn’t the one for Aunty’s epiphany today…. or maybe it is.)

Realizing that Aunty is in her final third phase of life, from Youth, to Working Adult, to Oldster is quite wonderful.  Life in these golden years (with good health) equals freedom to choose to do the things I want to do and not do the things I don’t want to do.  For example, Aunty does NOT want to babysit grandchildren on a regular basis and DOES want to pursue creating art and weeding.  This is a not quite an epiphany but more of a philosophy.

Recently, several small and big changes and events have occurred and Aunty has sailed smoothly through them.  Answers and inspiration seemed to show up randomly, or perhaps on purpose.  Sometimes a chance conversation leads to a train of thought that helps solve a riddle.  Sometimes making a wrong turn becomes the right destination.  Sometimes flipping a book open on a page reveals a wisdom at the exact perfect moment of understanding.

This is exactly what happened this morning, as Aunty was clearing her ever cluttered desk of papers, bills, and books.  “27 Flavors of Fulfillment, How to Live Life to the Fullest” is a book gifted from author Nathan Cain whom Aunty helped sponsor in his film “Cancer – The Integrative Perspective”.   It was flipped and opened up on page 90.  This section was written by Shelly Wilson with a paragraph titled, Tools to Discover the Truth of Who You Are.   Skimming through, a statement jumped out at Aunty and became today’s epiphany:

I am a spiritual being having a human life experience.

Whoa.  It was as if all the jumbled up building blocks suddenly clicked into place.  Each of us is a spiritual being having a human life experience.  Aunty read and re-read Shelly’s 5 pages and felt as if a great understanding of how life works was revealed.

Okay, so maybe Aunty is a bit off and people like my best and worst friend Cookie will roll her eyes because more evidence of Aunty’s weirdness has just show up.  Regardless, Aunty just had to share her most recent epiphany which actually does feel like a powerful religious experience.

Amen and Namaste,

Aunty

Wisdom is Wasted on the Old

bill-bonnerBill Bonner has a newsletter than Aunty subscribes to.  He owns Agora Publishing – a very affiliate based newsletter business – sometimes there is overkill in how many links that we are introduced to, but his insights are usually spot on and sage, so Aunty pays attention.

His Bill Bonner’s Diary post today started off with:

POITOU, FRANCE – “My father told me to plant trees,” said a neighbor last night.

“It was right after I bought this place. Of course, I was young… I was busy… I didn’t have time to plant trees.

“Now, I tell my sons to plant trees while they’re still young. So they can enjoy them later.

“Funny, as you get older, and the less future you have available, the better you know it.”

It went on to talk about the trillions of dollars of government debt (all the QE – quantative easing money that the Federal Reserve started printing beginning with President Bush and beyond) and how the younger generation will have to pay it eventually.  Or, there will be a collapse in the system.

Too heavy for Aunty.  For, what can the average person do?  The ostrich head in the sand shows up.

He then went on to talk about buying with debt – borrowing and using income to pay off the debt later IF all goes well.

Which brings to mind those trees that should have been planted when we were young.  Didn’t our parents tell us to save our money?  To eat healthy, cover up from the sun, exercise, work hard?

And what did Aunty do?

Spend like crazy, borrow constantly and use credit cards to their max.  Eat deliciously wonderful junk foods, go out in the sun without hat or sunscreen, sit and squander time.

Aunty has had to pay the price for not listening when she was younger.

Aunty emailed Bill Bonner, “Youth is wasted on the young, and wisdom is wasted on the old.”

However it is never too late to make changes in our lives, no matter how old or young we are, right?

Post note:  Aunty just finished listening to Deepak Chopra’s  “The New Physics of Healing” CD, borrowed from our local library.  Most of it was WAY above Aunty’s understanding – quantum this and fundamental that.

However, what was fascinating was how influential the collective belief of our communities and culture view old people.  For the most of us, getting old is an undesirable downhill slide into physical and mental deterioration.  In a few specific societies where getting old is something to look forward to, with the collective belief that oldsters are more functional, with bigger roles affording more respect and admiration, there is no physical or mental deterioration, but vibrant lives well into their 100s.

Perhaps, that is why, when we are with others who look good and enjoy life, we are ageless.  When we live each day without worrying about what doesn’t matter, we still have time to plant trees.

Your next 5 years

laptopAunty subscribes to over 40 websites for daily email updates and newsletters.  These vary from healthy cooking, beading, real estate, retirement planning, etc.  The majority of Aunty’s subscriptions focus on financial gurus letting subscribers know what they THINK may happen based on current and past factors.

Most of them are gloom and doomers.  The economy will collapse, we are in a bubble, sell everything and move to another country, get ready for the survival of the fittest, etc.

Some are believers in getting into the stock market for the long haul – buy now and hold forever, just make sure that you only buy top quality stocks.  Some believe in buying real estate. Some believe in buying and storing away gold.  Some are absolutely sure about bitcoin.

Who is right?  Probably every one of them.  The trouble is, we don’t know what will come first or happen until it happens.  So we plod on, hoping for the best, planning as best we can, or choose to just keep doing what we always do.

The post it note

Aunty has a little post it note on her laptop.  It asks, “What would I do if I only had a week/a month/ a year/5 years/ a life left to live?”  Then, it asks, “How can I design my routine this week to align with these answers?”  Allow 10 minutes per answer.

This post it note has been staring at Aunty for over a year, each time the laptop was opened.  It requires 50 minutes of sit down and write answers, so Aunty would look at the note, and then ignore it as emails were checked, Drama Fever shows were watched, games were played, or checking things out on the amazing world wide web.

A break in time

After Aunty broke her arm, it was really quite nice.  All chores, commitments, and activities stopped.  Friends and family brought food, became chauffeurs, and Aunty had an excellent excuse to not have to get up and fetch things or clean up.  Daughter #1 became a very capable and caring housemaid/cook/nurse aide.  Aunty would play HOURS of Candy Crush Saga with her right hand or watch Korean dramas nonstop without feeling any remorse of wasting time.  Ha Ha!  That was fun.

Aunty’s 5 years

Even while wasting time, that post it note kept asking, “What would I do if I only had a week/ a month/ a year/ 5 years/ a life time left to live?”

So for now, Aunty has thought about the 5 year time line.  If Aunty only had 5 years left to live.  Hmmm.  For starters, Aunty wants to be in excellent health – no aches, pains, disease.  Vibrant independent living.  Active in thinking capacity (no Alzheimers for Aunty!), financially set up for life, having a clutter free home (via the Mari Kondo Life Changing Magic of Tidying Up), a joyful garden, 2 chickens to lay fresh eggs, an understanding with the children about who gets what and how, and having freedom of time and space to create and create with all the beads, fabrics, and supplies collected over the years.

Planning for the near and far future means doing things rather than putting them off.  The end will be our memorial service.

A funeral picture

from "Miss Granny"

from “Miss Granny”

Aunty thoroughly enjoyed a Korean drama movie, Miss Granny.  She was a crotchety bitter old woman who had a hard life.  She went to a photo shop to have her funeral picture taken.  In Korea, during the memorial service, the deceased’s picture is framed and set in a horizontal flower wreath.  Rather formal, usually flattering, plain backdrop, headshot.  Something like a passport photo, but better because it is flattering by choice.

So, Aunty reached out to her favorite photo blogger, Jalna, to take her funeral picture next week.  Friends have been invited, but Aunty’s friends think she is weird so no takers – yet.

This will also be a time for pictures for Aunty’s new website design (taking forever but it shall be happening).  Jalna’s work place and photographer friend Leslie (check out her unreal Africa photo trip) will be coming to help, so already it shall be a fun day.

Having a funeral picture and updating HonoluluAunty.com is part of Aunty’s 5 year plan.

Choose YOUR what if and work on it

“What would you do if you only had a week/ a month/ a year/ 5 years/etc. left to live?”

Aunty probably has at least 20 years left and has been mulling over how she wants her life to be.  Maybe it is morbid, but doing what needs to be done now will make it easier for the ones we leave behind.

Earlier this year, Aunty had EDTA chelation done.  This was once a week for 10 weeks at her doctor’s office (excellent Dr. Takemoto-Gentile) to remove heavy metals and detox.  A friend thought it was dangerous and put a bit of fear into Aunty’s psyche.

So, one week prior to starting the treatments, Aunty thought a bit about what to do if there was just a week left for Aunty.  It was cleaning up the garage that had so much junk in it, one couldn’t walk to the back wall. Strange choice but it felt good.  (The garage is still a mess but less of one.)

Turns out, the IV chelation was great, safe, and the side effects were better health and talking to the doctor every week.

It was a successful 1 week exercise and rather an easy one.  If Aunty were to do another “what if” for a week long time frame, it might be handwriting individual aloha letters to the kids.  Maybe finally painting a couple of the window sills that are starting to peel and flake.  Definitely clearing all the papers and miscellany from the desk.  Rearranging pots and plants and trimming trees.

For right now, Aunty has the great excuse of a broken arm, but it is healing up so quickly, Aunty’s days of Candy Crushing for hours and hours will be over.  It will be full steam ahead again soon.

What would you choose to do?